This post is 2 days late. My aim was to post it on Christmas Eve, giving those that can relate to this blog a sense of encouragement and hope just in time for Christmas. I know I can’t be the only one that gets such feelings around this special time of year but unfortunately I missed my deadline battling them.
However, giving some time to reflect and ground my piece of mind. In such a short space of time I’ve learnt so much about my myself and even other people as well as strategies & coping mechanisms preventing me from getting to “that place” again.
Despite this blog being 2 days late, I have still decided to post it because with the new year coming in, I still feel as though where in the Christmas period and someone will be able to relate.
With that being said.
It’s Christmas; the most festive time of year. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m 21 now why this time of year no longer excites me but i’ve been told that maybe once I have a family of my own, that’s when the essence of Christmas will come back again.
Growing up Christmas was amazing. All my cousins, aunts, uncles would arrive at my grandmothers from Christmas eve to start the celebration. Food and drink were always overflowing not to mention the gifts we all woke up to in the morning. I’m adamant that this is what Christmas is truly about and I am determined to mimic the family tradition.
The last time I spent Christmas with my birth family was over 10 years ago. I decided that this is where I’d spend Christmas this year but the feeling was bittersweet.
As well as other issues that have contributed to the way I feel, I wish not to disclose. My mother passed away 3 years ago, everyday she’s on my mind but this time of year her absence is prominent.The pain still feels like yesterday and I am aware that those around me may not always be aware of that but this year I’ve found it helpful to talk about how I feel so I don’t have to carry it on my own.
For those with something missing this Christmas my advice to you is…
Talk to someone and tell them how you feel. Yes, I know it may sound insignificant but it is very important.
When you keep things to yourself the situations may seem way more overwhelming than they actually are. Where as someone else’s opinion can give you a different perspective and light on the situation and may even give a solution that you may not have thought of.
Not speaking out, can not only be mentally and physically draining but also make you feel as though you are carrying a heavy load however speaking out can give a sense of release.
This Christmas I encourage you to talk to someone. Don’t go through it alone. It’s ok not to be ok.